SAD

Today so blur~ Haiz……. stress until can’t sleep well last night. Is raining day, when I finish class at 3.30pm and wait until 4pm still raining. But I am rushing back to home. Cycle half way too fast can’t straight away to stop down because in front got…stupid thing…. I didn’t fall down my skill so expert but my file in basket fall out and I faster break but crack sound coming out, although I break but my bicycle is still moving with my file under the bic tyre moving together with all notes fly away. My heart also flies away so sad crack. The all notes new one haven’t attend the lecture class white notes become black notes with tyre footprint on it and wet already. My file totally can’t use already crack my heart also crack. Sad…….失败….失败……书读不好notes……..也protect不好…….

Dirty notes with crack file

Struggling

3 reports haven’t done yet, microbiology, physiology and biotechnology. Really don’t know how to start my biotech report. Gel electropholysis of DNA. Keep looking for information through google, genetics book haiz………………

Our result for biotech lab how to analyze? Stupid DNA stuff!

Recently done 4 tests already can’t do well, so sad study so hard but still no confident, everyday sleep at late wake up early. Next test coming soon on Saturday 2.30pm human resource test never listen in lecture even look and read the notes 6 chapters need to study, I didn’t put effort on my elective subject. Some more next week need pass up our assignment for human resource but my group not yet starts to do anything, so sad? Stress…….. Sorry this week can’t attend our CF committee meeting, CF gathering on Friday I also can’t make it because school got meeting at 8.30pm and Sunday can’t go services too because need stay at school. Running out of time. Ah.................a...................a....................................

Under stress

Recently, I stress up with lot of things, my studies, tests, assignments, presentation and school event. Due to my sickness it brings a lot troubles. I can’t handle my own meeting in last minutes. I don’t know it will burden to others or not for those who take over. Even I extract my teeth and very pain but I still want to go to school to do my own part presentation this two weeks. The second time is emergency go wash my wound in mouth although is really painful lack of blood, without say any single word I still want go school for my test in Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. I can’t do well in my exam. I whole week sleep late at night wake up early in the morning because I want to finish my own task or Job without anyone help me, it is my own business. And please be careful of words come out from you all own mouth with laud and will hurt people. I know you all very EMO stress out with a lot of things. But me too without complaining single words, I will try my best to handle it even though some time is hurt by …….. But unless I die la or else I will still be there do my things without complaining. And please be responsible of your own task or position, although a lot thing happen feel like want to give up. I almost can’t stand already but I will continue to do my thing without looking at others people who always show ugly face. Sorry for the postponing of UTAR Famine 12 to next Sunday 1 of March. And I receive an e-mail just now
Dear Monica
I understand it is very challenge,along the way, you will learn and gain a lot!A lot of things you need to plan it ahead.Question:
…….. or you need to have plan B...
Keep on postpone an activity is not good!........
Some time there is uncertainty and unexpected thing happen in our life. We must try to cope it. God will make a way. Now I just want avoid from my gang. Shiihhhhhh…………..quite and silent. I hate Monica now … sorry for inconvenient
Because people call me monica mah,
Monica ah……………
Monica the…………..
Monica informs you that………..
Monica the thing ya………………..
Monica emmmm………………
Or
Chairperson why………………..
ASK Chairperson……………………
Chairman makes decision ya……………..
My point of view emmm I know what is going on I can observe it I know, I know it, I will continue to keep quite even it is hurt me, never mind, I will cope it. But don’t think that I am too quite so easy to bully, guys be careful of the word or action. I know some time throw me last minutes work but I still can copes it without sleep, running out of time I can continue to be quite done my job that’s all. Don’t force me do the thing which is I don’t like it. No such things. Don’t talk to me. TRY THE BEST BE THE BEST NEVER GIVE UP, unless I die. And finally don’t be to “Ke Po” I didn’t order anything but if really initiative emm no comment! But don’t come back and complain in front of me ya, remember OWN RESPONSIBILITY!
Coming week has 2 tests, 2 assignments, 3 reports, presentation and meeting. See I so busy, BUT remember LIVE WITHOUT COMPLAINING.
Ooppppssss thanks for the prayer or anything my wound better already can eat can talk. Not bad.

Prayer needed!

Tonight emergency went to clinic again! Wound on gum got problem pain! 3 injections my face swelling one side already, wash the gum and take out the black and ugly string. The process washing it pain until want die already. Bleeding a lot again! It is damn pain now! Ahhhh..................tonight i needed burn out the midnight oil for 2moro test, but how to study in this condition? Need continue to fasting again haiz.....just buka puasa today but gagal lu......

4 days fasting! Puasa~

Do you every try fasting for 4 days. Due to the wound in my mouth still pain I need eat pain killer each 4 hours. I can’t eat for 4 days only drink soya bean. Some time at night pain until I wake up can’t sleep. So sad I so thin already and can’t eat. Until today I feel dizzy, fever and no energy to walk. Last night our CF first gathering I use up a lot energy because too many people. I so disappointed even last night my friend give me 1 banana I also feel pain eating the banana. Today Sunday service I also no energy to sing already. When I reach home open my books want to study but…haiz…..no energy to study. Monday microbiology test, Tuesday physiology test, Wednesday biochemistry and cell metabolism test, Thursday need pass up report and presentation too, Friday CF, Saturday Morning bio club have a trip to waterfall and evening got replacement class, and finally Sunday UTAR Famine 12 from 8am-8pm. This week my life full of evens. This afternoon even though still pains I go eat fast food with my friends because I need food to gain energy to study for my test, I can’t bite the food just eat without bite it. Ahhhh stress, sad I don’t have good time management. I am organizing chairperson for famine 12 and I receive a resignation letter from 1 of the committee member because she can’t cope with study so resign. I am not a good leader. Coming Sunday Famine 12 we need to handle 150 students. Now a lot of preparation and meeting need to be done. Pain, pain, pain, stressssssssssssssssssssssssssssss……………………………………………………………

禁食！Puasa~

Emmm I never try before stop eating for so long. Because of my teeth I stop eating more than 24 hours. 就当禁食祷告，because recently a lot of thing happen around me, my health, my family, my friends, my CF (Saturday 迎新会very important to us) and exam of all students. Now I start heard some good new keep come over. Thanks God. Although my gum still pain swelling keep eat strong pain killer and antibiotic. The most suffering is the string that sews over my gum make me can’t talk for too long. Thanks you all prayer because last night I bleeding until this afternoon only stop. Lost a lot blood and can’t sleep well whole night. I feel like I am vampire keep suck blood when I was sleeping last night. Today however I still attend the class for my presentation I found that my voice so different 讲话漏风，I don’t understand what I talking about. But thanks to all my friends that laugh when I first one presenting for my own group reduce my nervousness.

i drink this bought by my mum from sarawak, for this few day without eat anything!

And tonight my brother msn me, introduce his girfriend to me. Thanks my bro so late only share with me, mum told me before when our home open house. Dad and mum accept already, so i also respect lah although she only 17 years old younger than me, hahahah........some more from chinese independent school and we all didnt study chinese one, not bad! My first impression to this girl ok lah, boleh tahan! Please appreciate lo.

My tooth!打针+割+锋

My teeth die already. Tonight I went to dentist again, he said must extract the teeth. So, no choice, and it is at the bottom left side 2nd tooth. The process takes 1 hours and 30minutes. Why so long? Because it is too pain he give me injection more than ten times. First time in my life damn suffering, he said my tooth too strong hard to take out. Keep changing the extract apparatuses try to pluck my tooth but still can’t come out until whole my bottom teeth bone is tired and pain too he use his hand help me massage my bone on my both face! Actually I already can’t stand the pain already and my tear want come out already. The dentist sweating said you are my first patient like this some more is girl, tooth so strong. My mouth is swelling, he ask me pain ma, I didn’t answer already sure of course pain la. After long time ago, he said better operate cut some at the gum take it up. What the…. I so scare. And finally extract out but my tooth is different got 3 roots 1 root broken inside the gum. Wah now is turn to take up the root. Pain. . . . . .. . ..Ahhhhhh还被锋了两针。Ah wuuuuuuu……… Pain until I can’t talk. My face color also turns to like death people. He let me see the teeth and said the roots are not straight one a big like curve that’s why so hard to take up. My hands are shaking. He gives me a lot medical. Now I reach home still bleeding a lot, like I am vomit the blood. I don’t know tomorrow how I going to do my presentation. Dont scold me didnt brush my teeth, i brush my teeth twice a day. And please dont call my phone i can't speak, i will reject all my call.

My teeth with broken root!

Cockroach!

I hate cockroach! Last night we all busy study for microbiology test, so I plan to sleep early wake up early morning continue again. Around 12am I switch off the light and lie down. After a while, I heard weird sound like ZZzzzzzzzzzzzzz………………….I just wonder what the hell is that! Maybe test make me stress. I continue to lie on bed but suddenly I shock I jump up from my bed because I fell something climb on my leg like snake, I though really is a snake and on the light looking for it. Wahseh………..I saw big and fat cockroach on my bed. Scare and shock until stand there look at the cockroach and the cockroach also stay at me so enjoy. Wah that is my bed o. what to do! I went to my housemate room because only one room the light still on and other sleep like a pig. Ask him come help me settle the cockroach, and finally whole night busy searching the cockroach in my room and other friends also wake up to see what is going on. Finally using newspaper to catch it but don’t know some how the cockroach flies away from the window. End up I didn’t sleep well whole night and toothache too. Last night I on the light until this morning lie on bed. Today the test canceled and postpone to next week, luckily if not I don’t know how to do test in this condition. Physiology test also postpone to next week because lecturer busy with Japanese biologists student doing research in Kedah. Next week I need suffer for 3 tests Micro, physiology and biochemistry. Miss my grandma because today during lecture my mummy sms me told me that grandma heart problem fall down in toilet now in hospital. I shock too. Very sorry to my grandma I didn’t back for CNY and your 70th birthday and I absent for our big family photo taking. I try to call my grandma wish to talk to her but I can’t reach too. Now just busy with my study and this Saturday our 1st gathering in this year Christian fellowship. Hope everything will go well. Conclusion I hate cockroach, but I can’t kill it because I scare. Please tonight don’t come to sleep with me again.

My toothache!

Due to my toothache, I went to dentist at Wednesday night, after that I only realize two tooth got problem, so both need to clean it up for the old filling material, of course is pain, when the process cleaning it touch the root is damn pain. After that he let me see the holes I also shock 2 big holes. Zzzzzzz. One tooth is filling back with permanent filling material but another one is with temporary one after 2 weeks need go back check again. But so sad because of my tooth yesterday my presentation I can hear that my voices shaking, lolz………. Until today still a big pain on the serious side with temporary filled, gum is swelling and a big fever. That tooth count from inside the second bottom one. Dentist says that if still pain maybe need do the root treatment or else just pluck it. Root treatment? After I search in google root treatment, wah I am scared already need to take up the roots and clean it then put it back. Sure very complicated process and sure very pain sure I cry later and time consuming. But the most momo scare is injection for the numb so the process only can be done. And I need visit dentists few times again. But Kampar here is cheaper two teeth I go refill that day cost RM65. So, I hate dentists now. The medicine he gives I didn’t eat because I having class whole day time worry fall down asleep. What to do? Toothache, no mood to do anything. …..Everyday just wants sleep early and wake up late to school. I become thinner again no mood to eat and many hard foods can’t eat. Next week physiology and microbiology tests haven’t study yet. Haiz……….

没良心！

Under stress! I am busy with my 2 reports, assignment, presentation for this week and next week got 2 tests. Tonight when having dinner my tooth is damn pain, until I can’t continue to do my things. Tomorrow is public holiday for Perak only. Tooth pain make me no mood already and the gum swelling maybe is the filling material part in my teeth got problem, virus? Some more my sister Skype sends some CNY photo for me. I know you all went back hometown Sibu I can’t go back.

过年去拍全家福，我都不在那算是全家福！姐姐，妈妈，爸爸和哥哥！哼没等我！

妈妈人身中第一次遇到水灾！幸灾乐祸

我姐姐“肥婆”Miri 人是没看过水灾的！三八老！

开工了！

谢谢这车的合作！开车前还是要祷告哦！

作晚才被通知今天要我开福音车，吓倒一下好久没架了。因为William 没空我就要开车了。作晚忙着SMS 给人问需要交通的人，还希望没人要去我就不必开车咯，结果很多人都回来了，Momo命中注定要开车！Si Jian 和Si chuan 都不在！Momo 就打电话给一个人名叫Yuan xin 谢谢你用bu bu 车载我去教会那车。 开工了在8.15am 载人，我放工到家时，是1.30pm。 好累哦。我很lucky 的到教会9am 没迟到，刚刚好。可是呢今天我忘了是圣餐主日，跟奇怪今天没有赞美警拜，怪怪的人身中的第一次。牧师讲道时我的肚子好饿哦，还没吃又开车，又觉得好热哦，牧师讲完道时既然有人晕倒了，才发现是教会里很“kok”不是我身体发热！令圣餐时，发现不是四方形的面包片了，新牧师用的是圆形的白饼还有“十”瘾号在饼中间，不是Guardian 面包了。突然willian 又SMS我说12.30pm 代表大专去开教会的姿势会，可是我要载人的，干好替死鬼走过我们大专的导师，zi cheng 我叫他去开会！哈哈，他答应了，我不喜欢开会的。就这样崇拜后代他们去吃午餐在载他们回家。他们说“Monica 辛苦了”。我没因回去不知道说什么好，因为真的很累。不过很开心载你们去教会，这种感觉很好。我只会为别人早想不为自己想，载完人放车时，哇不对了，教会没人了望了我要怎样回家啊。好恐怖哦。难道在那边哭骂。没有啦，我很难掉眼泪的。突然想到替死鬼，就打给他，救命啊载我回家。好才导师有来载我回家。难忘的一天。